Not sure I can take much more of this anxiety. Just want to be rid of it once and for all. Feels like my heart is about to explode.
Like seriously life has become a whirlwind of just stress.
Like nothing big that’s stressful as a singular unit but something which just overwhelms when all put together.
I mean things with Lirael’s health is just worrying and that always’ sticks me out of whack with simple worry.
My tablets and remembering to take them everyday is just something which I’m going to have to live with. I’m not sure if I’m getting any better but I’m certainly something different than I used to be. I think one of the side effects which is depression gets to me sometimes. Like sometimes the feelings like swamp me and make me feel so low but at the same time I just want to do EVERYTHING. But that will pass I’m sure and hopefully this whole wanting to cry over everything that comes my way will surely ease off. I’m not emotional and that sucks to feel like that as such.
Then I found out something which is just like blah. I mean I’ve known this person for so long and to suddenly find out something which is totally life changing and like shocking and in my head I find myself justifying it or trying to find a simple reason as to why this happened when they never seemed like that is crazy because it’s against everything I’ve ever stood for. And then there’s the thoughts of ‘could it have been me?’ And that’s what goes around in my head is that if I had of stayed in their life would I be in that situation or would they have turned out differently.
I cuddled with a bag of weed because hoes keep stealing my tacos
I ran naked with a glass of milk because I am a pimp…
I snacked with a stripper because I’m gay
I banged my best friend because I’m sexy like that
Why does it have to be so sensible?
Anyone want to be my best friend no joke cause I need that shit man- not the banging necessarily, just the best friend thing
I needed a french fry because hoes keep stealing my tacos.
I stabbed a homeless guy because I like marijuana.